After last week’s post on Weighty Issues, I decided that what I really, really need in my life right now is MORE STRESS.
(OK, not exactly.)
Actually, I am theorizing that my recent increase in emotional eating is directly related to three factors:
- Too much spare time on weekday evenings (Mon – Thurs)
- Anxiety over submitting my first novel and waiting for responses
- Procrastination related to my next novel
All of which could be alleviated by getting into the flow of a new project. So I’ve signed up for a Writer’s Online Workshop called 12 Weeks to a First Draft with the intention of kicking my fiction production back into high gear.
The cost is expensive. The lecture materials are aimed at first-time authors who have never completed a novel-length work of fiction. The course content contains nothing new or earth shattering that I have not learned in the many other workshops, seminars, books on writing, author interviews, etc where I have previously invested many of my hard-earned dollars.
The scientific-minded man in my life asked, “WHY?!?!? You are a talented writer. Why don’t you just break down the task into weekly mini-goals and work through it?”
Why indeed. That’s an excellent question.
My answer: Writer, know thyself.
I honor my commitments. That’s why I’m a great employee who can readily ask for recommendations from any former employer. I was an honor student because my mother told me, “Your entire job in life is to get good grades and get a scholarship to college.” Done. If you want to get astrological, I’m Capricorn – work horse of the zodiac.
And yet…I have this weird kink in my “Good Girl Friday” nature that causes me to let my own precious self down over and over and over.
If I had a contract or agreement with an editor to produce X number of pages by Y date, only a cataclysmic disaster would stop me from delivering those pages.
However, if I tell myself I need to produce X pages by Y date….hello Law & Order marathon on TNT.
Until that book contract arrives, I need to set up a surrogate editor/writer relationship. Hence the expensive workshop with weekly assignments that must be turned in every Sunday for 12 weeks. Hurrah! Instant artificial editor.